I let the beast in too soon (Fiona Apple)

One of my fav artists during high school, I listened to her 1st two albums very often. Her debut LP was in my discman when I was assaulted in 2000. The song "Carrion", which I really like, was playing. She became famous in 1997 with the hit "Criminal" & -if I'm not mistaken- was classified as angsty chick music together with others such as Tori Amos (like), PJ Harvey (like. Also, many have said I look like her, YAY!), Alanis Morrissette (who I began to h8 with the release of Supposed former infatuation junkie), Sarah McLaughlin (hit: "Adia"), umm...Ani Difranco & Liz Phair (maybe the angriest of them all, amirite?) & I dunno, all those women who played the Lilith Fair festival.

The song I have chosen today is the 1st single off her 2nd album. The title of said LP is a poem which I used to know by heart, but now I only remember the first line. When the Pawn Hits the Conflicts He Thinks Like a King, What He Knows Throws the Blows When He Goes to the Fight, And He’ll Win the Whole Thing ’Fore He Enters the Ring, There’s No Body To Batter When Your Mind Is Your Might, So When You Go Solo You Hold Your Own Hand, And Remember That Depth Is the Greatest of Heights, And If You Know Where You Stand, Then You'll Know Where To Land, And If You Fall It Won’t Matter, Cuz You'll Know That You’re Right. I wonder if it's the longest album title ever.

I let the beast in too soon, I don't know how to live
Without my hand on his throat; I fight him always & still
Oh darling, it's so sweet, you think you know how crazy
How crazy I am
You say you don't spook easy, you won't go, but I know
And I pray that you will
Fast as you can, baby, run - free yourself of me
Fast as you can

I may be soft in your palm but I'll soon grow
Hungry for a fight, and I will not let you win
My pretty mouth will frame the phrases that will
Disprove your faith in man
So if you catch me trying to find my way into your
Heart from under your skin
Fast as you can, baby scratch me out, free yourself
Fast as you can

Sometimes my mind don't shake and shift
But most of the time, it does
And I get to the place where I'm begging for a lift
Or I'll drown in the wonders and the was
And I'll be your girl, if you say it's a gift
And you give me some more of your drugs
Yeah, I'll be your pet, if you just tell me it's a gift
'cause I'm tired of whys, choking on whys,
Just need a little because, because

I let the beast in and then;
I even tried forgiving him, but it's too soon
So I'll fight again, again, again, again, again.
And for a little while more, I'll soar the
Uneven wind, complain and blame
The sterile land
But if you're getting any bright ideas, quiet dear
I'm blooming within

Fast as you can, baby wait watch me, I'll be out
Fast as I can, maybe late but at least about
Fast as you can leave me, let this thing
Run its route
Fast as you can
- "Fast as you can", Fiona Apple

Other recommended songs (in no order): The way things are, Never is a promise (My favorite lyrics, possibly), Shadowboxer, Carrion, Across the universe (cover. Nice vid, too), Get gone, Extraordinary machine, A better version of me