A girl who's too sad to give a fuck (Bright Eyes)

The other night with Seanne (Xiani, xylophone), Austin (PowerZ LOL) & maybe Olivia (Tremor Control) as well we discussed Bright Eyes & how everyone they know is like "O ya, I liked Bright Eyes back when I was 16". I didn't like Bright Eyes when I was 16, but around that time I was listening 2 the only album of his I've ever heard in its entirety: "Fevers & mirrors". My opinion? I dig his lyrics (of course...so emo, so me), but the music...not so mich. Conor Oberst, u are a ~st0ne f0x~, but...2 whiny & dramatic even 4 my taste, sry. Some ppl have since then recommended songs by him. Irana liked "Bowl of oranges" & put it on a mix she made me, 4 example, Etienne said I gotta check out some of his later work & other Saddle Creek stuff & I will. Just haven't gotten around 2 it yet. Anyways we were talking about that song "Lover I don't have to love", was that his hit or something? Everyone seems 2 know it. I liked the lyrics then (@ 16), I like them now...worth remembering, if u ask me.

I picked you out
Of a crowd & talked to you.
Said I liked your shoes,
You said, "Thanks, Can I follow you?"

So it's up the stairs,
And out of view. No prying eyes.
I poured some wine.
I asked your name;
You asked the time.

Now it's two o'clock.
The club is closed,
We are up the block.
Your hands are on me,
Pressing hard against your jeans,
Your tongue in my mouth,
Trying to keep the words from coming out,
You didn't care to know
Who else may have been you before.

I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a girl who's too sad to give a fuck.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I thought he said to meet him here,
But I'm not sure.
I've got the money
If you've got the time.
He said, "It feels good."
I said "I'll give it a try."

Then my mind went dark,
We both forgot where your car was parked.
Let's just take the train.
I'll meet up with the band in the morning

Bad actors, with bad habits...
Some sad singers, they just play tragic.
& the phone is ringing,
& the van is leaving
Let's just keep touching,
Let's just keep...keep singing

I want a lover I don't have to love,
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk.
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger & I can't seem to get full.
I need some meaning I can memorize.
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind.

But you, but you...

You write such pretty words,
But life's no storybook.
Love's an excuse to get hurt.
& to hurt.
Do you like to hurt?
I do, I do.
Then hurt me (repeat etc etc)

- "Lover I don't have to love", BRiGHT EYES

Ha, I was googling the cover art for the album & found this description. "Simple guitar tunes & above all, the dramatic voice of Conor Oberst. Some call him the voice of the generation. @ the least, the voice of all depressive & self-obsessed souls". SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT, UH HUH.

&&& I recall Conor is in2 Latin American stuff. Like, he had another band called Desaparecidos after the ppl who disappeared during Argentina's military dictatorship. I used 2 like their song "What's new for fall", kinda about ~FASHiON~. Or maybe it had a srs bsns, Deep Meaning but I didn't get it. Wouldn't be a surprise since I'm not the sharpest crayon in the box. Desaparecidos had an album called WRITE MUSIC READ SPANISH or something like that. BUENA ONDA.

Subway sect (Dream)

The other night I dreamt of being lost on the subway in New York City, a place I haven’t visited since early 2005. In the dream, I was surprised to learn that the 1-9, which I used to ride waaay uptown to the apartment my brother shared with his girlfriend (who is no longer his girlfriend, actually. Her last name had the word Music in it, isn’t that awesome?), no longer connected north & south Manhattan. I was gonna have to change trains a billion times to reach my destination. I remember that it was wintertime, everyone was all bundled up, & thinking “How does Courtney do it, manage to get around?” bc the new subway map looked so confusing & complicated, @ least 2 me. I was wearing The Dress of Disgrace @ the time.

As far as I can recall, I’ve never been lost on the NYC Subway. But I have on the Paris Métro. Very unhappy times. I had absolutely no idea where I was, not just geographically speaking : P Like I totally know now, ha. Anyways, it was also probably a kinda dangerous situation, but of course you don’t consider such things until later. I was crying, everything was spinning (Anoche me acosté y todo daba vueltas menos mi corazón, says a friend’s screen name. Last night I went to bed & everything was spinning except my heart. LOLz. He’s 15, ok, STFU. He's also like a TOTAL ~st0ne fox~, I fell head over heels when I saw him, I couldn't wipe the Cheshire Cat Grin off my face. So I corrected the spelling mistakes in his screen name) but somehow I texted Eugenia, who luckily managed to guide me back to hers.

“Lost in a Paris nightclub”, Kahimi Karie. Hm…Don’t think so. But I did get kind of lost on the way to Le Paris Paris. Rather, I...lost the club. Couldn’t find it. I knew the street (Ave de L'Opéra) & which corner it was supposed to be (across from a bank?) on but...it just wasn’t there dude, I’m srs. I thought “What if it’s like those places that only show up @ certain times & 4 certain ppl?” Like the Room of Requirement in Harry Potter or the bookstore in The Neverending Story. I went once with Eugenia & Baptiste, one of my best nights in Paris. After having wine with Andrés near République. I missed that night for the rest of my trip. Anyways the girl guarding the bathroom @ Paris Paris was soOoO pretty, I was like SALUT TU EST TRÈS JOLIE (I said this 4real). She had blood red lipstick, it was LOVE. Then I tried to go again with Yael but we couldn't find it so we went to Le Marais, & this couple of lesbians came & asked us if we were lesbians. Also I tried to go alone one night but I couldn't find it either. So I got on the vélib (public transport bicycle) & rode back to home (Quai de la Loire), wasted, losing a scarf with ~deep sentimental value~ in the process. DOUBLE FAIL. I came to the conclusion that the club isn’t open every weekend when summer is approaching & I hope I’m right bc otherwise it means I am a gigantic retard.

“Lost in the supermarket”, The Clash.
I think of it every time it’s my turn to do the groceries. It reminds me of Nyssa as well bc she liked. & I texted it to Andrew one time he was @ the store while I waited for him at the St Paul métro. Condensed milk in a tube plz.

“Lost in the K-Hole”, the Chemical Brothers.
I had no idea K-hole actually meant something & was not Chemical Babble, but Whitney recently enlightened me: Ketamine hole, “but a k-hole can be anytime you are tragically stuck & cannot quite get out...” DUDE, I KNOW ALL ABOUT THOSE LAST ONEZ. But I’m not in a K-hole right now…nope… : ) Chemical Bros to me is Marcia bc I went to the concert with her (tragic experience, 4 another post), Dandy, 2005, Fernando Peña (this has an explanation), my radio class with JPT...

Richey Edwards (yes, I can find a way to mention him in EVERY POST) liked a band called Subway sect, especially the song “Nobody’s scared”. & now I gotta go get my sins absolved...

Oh baby get me drunk I'll go to my knees (Paul Simonon & Squeeze[s])

In one of the books about the Clash that LokarX lent me, there were photos of them with girls. One caption in particular remained in my mind. It read: "Paul Simonon's main squeeze".

Squeeze
1. A girl or guy who is not one's girlfriend, but often has sexual relations with that person anyway.
Nah, man. She's not my girl, she's just a squeeze.
2. Your current boyfriend or girlfriend.
Just going for a coffee with my new squeeze.
[urbandictionary.com]

If I were to be somebody's main squeeze, Paul Simonon would not be a bad choice @ all xD

I say everybody's waitin - I want moments like these.
Oh baby get me drunk I'll go to my knees
Such a surge overload Oh the whold joint explode
Everyone you ever saw indulgin' in squeeze
- "Down at the rock n roll club", Richard Hell & the Voidoids

There's also a band called Squeeze. The 1st song I heard by them was "Up the Junction", after reading Lily Allen say in an interview it was her very fav ever. I thought it had the same feel as "Stay free" by the Clash, for some reason. Then I heard "Tempted" & was like OMG I TOTALLY KNOW THIS SONG. Must be their #1. You've probably heard it too. It's...una canción de la vida, as my friends & I say. Like, "A Song Of The Life". LOL. That's a shitty translation. But. Y'know what I mean, right?

Other classics incluuude
- "Black coffee in bed"
- "Cool for cats" YAY CATS YAY!!!

Expressions: You're a stone fox, That's hot

A couple of you have asked, urbandictionary.com answers

Stone fox
1. One who is so awesome that not only are they foxy, they are also solid. The most perfect compliment for any lady you gentlemen have your eye on.
Whispering: You're a stone fox.
2. The ultimate hot guy!!!'
Omg did you see Steve the other day..he is SUCH a stone fox!

Personally, I 1st heard the expression in Sofia Coppola's film "The Virgin Suicides", when Trip Fontaine (Josh Hartnett) says it to Lux Lisbon (Kirsten Dunst). Apparently it was 70s slang? I dig it. But I use it for girls, too.

Another expression I enjoy: That's hot, made famous by Paris Hilton. Haters to the left, I love her XD

"Meeting Paris Hilton", Cansei de Ser Sexy